Early last week, it started with a leg cramp, then a stomach ache caused by a nut allergy, onto a sore throat, to bronchitis and now a lost voice. The universe used my body to tell me to SLOW DOWN. I started a new job, continued to teach yoga classes around the Bay, continued to make art work, do wardrobe fittings, preparations for a fashion show, meetings, emails, appointments and still cook meals and pack my lunches and somehow manage working out 3x a week, plus have some sort of social life. Looking at all this makes me feel like I was doing WAY too much. I need to space things out and reevaluate myself. I was not taking time to schedule LESS and take in “Me time Days.” What I mean by that is once a week, have a day where I do NOTHING. Living in our busy culture of work work work with no self-care can be a struggle. I am so used to being busy and taking in leisure time to just breathe and focus on myself is something I still struggle with. SO… my body and the universe has told me to slow down… and in that my body has responded with these symptoms. I have taken this week to just rest and calm my mind. It has been difficult but a blessing for my own self care.
Our bodies are miraculously intelligent
Our bodies tell us to slow down with colds, pain, discomfort, headaches, stomach aches, etc. When our minds take charge, and we GO GO GO, it becomes easy to neglect our bodies. And in that our bodies respond and we become sick. The physiological issues we experience are connected to our psychological issues. The pain we experience emotionally can be stuck in our bodies. For example, a car accident causes you to have whiplash and every time you ride in a car, and there is a sudden jolting stop, your neck begins to ache. Your body remembers the trauma that has occurred and the pain resurfaces when any stress triggers that memory your body experienced. You may feel that you are over this incident mentally, but your body remembers it and so the somatic experience still exists, requiring further exploration on your part.
How does this connect to this cold telling me to slow down?
Well I have a past of taking on too much and then just getting sick over and over again. In the last 9 months though, I have not gotten sick. I have chronic asthma and I am super careful around taking care of my body because the risk factors for my health. I practice yoga on a regular basis and eat fresh healthy food. But it is not just eating healthy and exercise, but much more than that. I do my best to notice the nuances my body has around stress and work, how I react in emotional situations, the capacity I have to offer love and service to others, and how disease is connected to my emotional state. Becoming a yoga instructor has required me to really focus on my own well-being because if I am not well, I cannot be a catalyst to share the healing benefits of yoga. I have been more stressed due to this new job, and I began to just feel overwhelmed with the stress of it all, and my body responded.
So what did I do?
I took time to breathe, I made efforts to see a doctor as soon as I could so I know how to treat my cold, I caught up on netflix, continued a restorative personal yoga practice, read blogs, continued to do what easy work I could (emails, fb, IG promo, etc), read, slept a lot, and created some artwork. I got to do what I wanted to do when I was too busy. I reevaluated my experience with being sick, I struggle with reframing how I see sickness, I see it as something “I did wrong or could have prevented,” but instead I am slowly accepting that the universe told me to slow down and take it easy. I still cannot speak (I lost my voice), but the silence has taught me so much, to focus internally and center myself. And it got me to write one of my very first entries on this blog. 😀
Thank you for listening!
I also have some posts coming up with some yoga poses I am using to heal myself during bronchitis and my laryngitis. And a wonderful fresh basil, kale and sweet potato soup recipe.